nothing much has been happenignn around here. im  in a play ( aladdin... i know it sounds dorky....but oh well im bored. ) so thats fun. im a narator and stuff. ive been having depressed up and downs again. The scare that wont fade it seems. but today ive been good. its not serious or any thing it just makes me feel REALLy down and liek im dumb crap. :'( im sick of all this sadness crap.

in over news... i have a new enemy to add the list. in the paly theres a girl who falt out does not like me. ive nothing but she hates me. its a odd new case of envy, im friends with JW (im using the fist letter of his fist & last name.) aparently he's some "hot" guy or somthing. he refears to me as his sister and ithink of him as my brother. She likes him and doesnt like me being so close. aparently ill get "in the way". this has hapened twice this year and its getting really freaking anoying. >< ive alwas been mosre to hang out with guys because i fit in with them more then most girls. so girls dont like that. those girls have no freaking lives.

p.s. im keeping my anger at bay, when i use to get mad i would hit somthing. (mostly walls) theres still that fire in me but im holding it. im worried ill busrst one day though.